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Friday, August 29, 2014

RAISINS

That is all Cash wants to eat right now.

He hasn't had dinner in two nights because all he wants are....RAISINS!!!!!!!!!!!!

There are raisins all over our house. In my car. In the front yard. IN THE SCHOOL PARKING LOT.

He actually hoards them in his tent sometimes for emergency reasons.

Raisins account for 99.9% of daily tantrums.

I hate raisins.

Except when I need to bribe him.

Then I love raisins.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

BEHIND THE NAME: BENNETT

i always knew if we had a girl i wanted a boys name for her. my mom chose one for me and i wanted to continue the tradition. i googled and googled for months and kept thinking i wanted one with a ''c'' to match cash. our top choices were carson, cade (cash and cade, i mean come on), and coy.  but none of these ever felt like ''the one''. i love cade for a boy but for a girl i didn't want people to think her name was caden or cadence etc. and carson was too popular for girls lately. and then coy was going to be if we had a boy so i couldn't imagine it on her. then i asked for suggestions via twitter and a good friend wrote me a list- one of which was bennett. i had seen a little girl on instagram a few weeks before that named bennett and added it to our list but kind of brushed it off because it didn't start with a c.  rewind to even months before that when i was in austin for the ole miss game-- my bff JD and i were talking about names and benny came up. i even texted brett at like 1 AM ''benny suzanne i love it :)''....but again we brushed it off because it didn't start with a c.

after my friend suggested bennett on twitter, everything just kind of made sense and i made the connection between bennett and benny. bennett could be her formal name and we could call her benny. you see, we call cash ''cashy'' so that night i asked brett...how about bennett and call her benny? benny and cashy? and he said, it's perfect. <3 even more perfect that my dad's name is benjamin and that makes it a play off a family name kinda sorta.

plus who doesn't want an excuse to sing b-b-b-b-enny and the jets.

the whole point of this blog post is how it's kind of funny how fate works. i think benny was destined to have this name.  my dad's name is benjamin franklin (I KNOW, I KNOW). and he is named after my grandfather's baby brother who passed away tragically in a car accident at a very young age.  he was so special to my grandfather and his family and the tragedy that they had to go through is just unimaginable.  a few years ago my grandfather gave my dad his brothers wallet, which still had the tire tracks on it from the car accident.  it was a special moment and something my dad cherishes.  so after we announced the name to my parents at christmas, my dad called my grandfather to tell him that we were going to name her bennett and call her benny. and what my grandfather said next will always be so special to me.  he told my dad that his brother benjamin went by the name benny. that was his name. what they called him. what he was known as. and that is when i knew we made the right choice, and i couldn't be happier to have my daughter share his name.

have a great day y'all
xoxo
ryann

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

MISS BENNETT

Bennett Suzanne Detamore was born on St. Patrick's Day, and I can't believe the amount of love I instantly experienced with her.  She was and is completely perfect and the sweetest little addition to our growing family.

I wanted to write her birth story while it's still fresh in my mind because these days with two kids I forget e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.  We checked into the Woman's Pavillion around 6 AM and by 8 AM my water was broken and pitocin started. (#ihateyoupitocin) I made sure to ask the nurse the time frame it would take to get the epidural because with Cash they took FOREVER to get to the room and my contractions had multiplied a trillion by the time that doctor showed his face.  She said usually around 40 minutes.  Well as soon as I started to get uncomfy I asked for it and she said I was first on the list...after they finish up surgery. Which should be about 20 minutes. Liars. I kept asking (yelling) the poor med student when in the H they were coming because I'm about to die.  OVER AN HOUR LATER they finally came.  By this time my contractions had multiplied by a trillion again and I was screaming that I'm really never doing this ever. ever. ever. again.  As soon as I got the epidural with Cash I felt immediate relief and it was the best thing that ever happened to me.  Well this time I felt no relief whatsoever. The doctor kept reassuring me that in 15 minutes it will hit me and I'll start to feel tingly. Waited...nothing...bad contraction...waited...nothing...horrible contraction...finally the anesthesiologist' nurse pumped me another dose of medicine...nothing...then she tried a different medicine...maybe a little relief but barely....another bad contraction....at this point I'm screaming to Brett "WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS, WHY ISN'T IT WORKING, I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO SOMETHING''

Finally they realize something isn't working and in walks the anesthesiologist and examines my back where the gigantic needle was....yeah the catheter is loose...you aren't getting the full dose...we need to redo it. DO IT ALREADY THEN.

Of course after everything was fixed I felt immediate relief. I had a FAILED epidural y'all. I hope no one ever experiences that because it sucks. Bad.

At this point I'm so drowsy from all the different medicine I just want to go to sleep and I keep talking about being on a beach with a margarita #obviously. About 5 minutes later, the resident came in and ask me if I felt any pressure or not (you know from the baby). And I'm like ummm I think so but not really but maybe I'm so tired I have no idea I can't move. So they examine me one last time and he says to the nurse...call the doctor asap this baby is coming NOW. Apparently her head was you know like right there.  The doctor comes, she tells me to push, I say I can't I'm so tired it's impossible, she says do it, I push for literally like 2 minutes, maybe 2 or 3 times, and Miss Bennett came into this world.

So after it's all said and done, I guess I can't complain too much.





She's just perfect.

And she's 3 weeks old already.

By the way they say going from 0 to 1 kid is WAY harder than going from 1 to 2....they are lying. 2 is way harder. But that's a whole other post.

xoxo,
ryann, cash & benny

Monday, March 10, 2014

ONE WEEK COUNTDOWN

WHAT CAN I DO TO GET THIS BABY GIRL OUT OF ME?

I am determined NOT to be induced and I am also determined for her NOT to be born on Cash's birthday. Totally under our control right?

I've tried hot wings. Spicy Chinese food. Hot mustard. Mex food.  Walking (all day). Chasing around a sort-of-walking 1 year old.  Rocking. A lot of rocking. I even tried pumping. Nothing!!!! I had one contraction at 3:25 AM and kept thinking this is it this is it! Then I fell back asleep and woke up perfectly fine at 6.  Grrrrrrr.  I feel like all these old wives tales are total BS. Maybe I just need to learn to accept that my babies are late and that's that.

On the other hand, I am trying to soak up the alone time Brett & I have before another little one comes into our lives. With Cash sleeping through the night and going to bed around 7, we have time for a movie, TV shows, to cook dinner, order in...not to mention sleep. SLEEEP, I shall miss thee for a while.

On the other other hand, send me suggestions to serve this child an eviction notice.

Kthanksbye

xoxo,
ryann

For your reading pleasure here was my One Week Countdown post last year for Cash man http://west26bliss.blogspot.com/2013/03/7-days.html

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

CASH'S FAVORITE THINGS

Little man has been sleeping around 11 hours straight at night so I think I can officially say night weaning FREAKING WORKS. Please please give it a try if you are having the same issues we were, I can't say enough good things about it. Of course every baby is different but I never thought 2 months ago I would be saying Cash slept through the night before his little sister was here!! Of course mom is up at 5 due to pregnancy insomnia but that's a whole other story ;)

I thought I'd round up a few of Cashy's favorite things at 11 months old.  We're always looking for new, fun toys too so if you have any suggestions please let me know!!

Any and all Melissa & Doug chunky puzzles:
Safari

THIS ELEPHANT: It also helped him learn to stand on his own!


Mega Bloks (have heard from lots of other moms that these are a big hit too):
                                                  

His own piggy bank:

                                            
He just figured out how to put the coins in the slot on his own and it cracks.him.up.on.the.reg.

Loves to chase these around the house: 

                                                   

His first birthday is coming up and I'm highly considering this for outside:

Little Tykes Pirate Water Table
                                                 
And maybe this. Would it be soooo wrong to get him a pink one?! It's so much cuter and obviously his sister will use it.
Bring on other toy suggestions please :)

xoxo,
ryann

PS. 3 more weeks to go. I can barely move. #hurryup

Monday, February 17, 2014

IT'S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN

4 weeks from today baby makes her debut! I AM SO READY. Emotionally still scared and nervous about having two, but just really ready to meet her and for her to join our family.  I start going to the doctor every week now to get updates. She said since I was late with Cash, I'll probably be late with her. Bah hum bug. ALSO she gave me the option to induce at 39 weeks but nothankyougoodlord. I'll wait patiently until she is given an official eviction notice.


Cash has officially been sleeping through the night for about a WEEK now! We had one really off night because he had a tooth coming in, but he put himself back to sleep eventually and we haven't had to hear him cry since! Then one morning he woke up at 5 AM but just played in his crib for a few hours without crying. I made it a rule to not go in there to get him until 7 AM (unless he starts screaming and it's like 6:30) but so far he's been an angel with the 7 rule.  Brett & I actually stayed up to watch TWO MOVIES this weekend. Something we haven't done in like a year and a half. It's a big deal you guys.


There's also someone I want to introduce you to that I think has been a huge help in night weaning.  Maybe it's all in my head but now I can't imagine not having THIS.  We have the regular Graco Sound Machine in his room which he's heard since he was a wee one and I am never giving that up. But I read about this other thing in one of the 100 books I ordered about sleep training so thought we'd try it. We put it outside his room and crank up the white noise setting. You see our house is really open and there is no carpet aka you can hear freaking e-v-e-r-y-t-h-I-n-g. And having 3 dogs who love to bark doesn't help either.  Anyways, this little machine seems to help block out all the noise going into his room so we use it every night and now have started to use it during nap time too. Highly recommend.


One last thing, a special shout out to Brett who's been my biggest support system through this pregnancy and journey of momma-hood so far. He made my Valentine's so special and I'd go to another concert until 1 AM with him any time :) Love you bebe!

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

HOLY COW

I'm sitting here drinking a cup of coffee. Watching the monitor. On which my child is sleeping. And has been since 7:30 PM last night. No crying, no nothing. Y'all, this is the second night in a row this has happened.  I didn't want to write a blog post yesterday because if I did and was all like YAAA THIS SHIZ WORKS, then he was up the next night, I'd feel pretty defeated. But 2 nights in a row calls for a celebration.  And if he goes 3 nights? Well shit, he might get his 1st birthday cake a month early.

I honestly feel like night weaning worked/is working for us.  Just last month we were up twice a night and he was easily consuming 10 ounces.  And now that we KNOW he's not hungry and is capable of sleeping straight through feedings, I am mentally ok if he wakes at 5 AM and cries/whines for a while without running in there with a bottle.  I hope these good/positive posts continue for the next few days and this is a permanent thing! If anyone wants to know more details or wants to try night weaning feel free to message me! You know I love me some FB messages.

Moving on...while we're both basking in the fact that we get to sleep straight through the night as well, it's kind of funny that in 5 weeks we will revert to newborn sleep deprivation.  New parents you know what I mean. Where your eyes are literally SO HEAVY and you think to yourself omg I never knew it was possible to be this tired. Or looking out your window at 2 AM and thinking, god I hate everyone else who is sleeping right now. Or going out in public and looking at someone and thinking, I bet you got like 10 hours of sleep last night- I hate you.  That was just me? Ok. Embarrassing.  Anyways, we are so lucky that we have a ton of help now that we are back in Houston and I'm hoping this time around I will be able to nap a little during the day to get back on track (who am I kidding, napping for me = FB and blogging time).

Random news:

Cash is THIRTY TWO (and a quarter) inches tall. Putting him in 100% for height.
He turns 1 year old 2 days after baby girl's due date. Ha.
I have my first official check up at the doctor this Friday to see if I'm dilated/effaced. (let's not get our hopes up)
And Cash is officially awake- 7 AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good job little man.

Must go. xoxox


Monday, February 10, 2014

PROGRESS AND 5 WEEKS TO GO

NIGHT 11 (SUNDAY)

Bedtime: 7:30 PM
Woke: 4 AM (drank: 2 oz)
Awake for the day: 6:45/7 AM

Last night was probably the easiest night we've had so far. He woke up squirming and whining around 4 AM (late for him!!) and we decided to go ahead and continue with the feed since we didn't want to mess up the night weaning schedule. Brett fed him 2 ounces and back to sleep he went with minimal fussiness. This made me think of what might happen next....I have a feeling he is going to start waking up early-- say around 5/5:30 and I'm scared I won't know what to do! Is that too late of a time to let him CIO? Or is he hungry and wanting to eat/go back to sleep??  Or is he awake for the day??  I feel like that early morning wake/feed/back to sleep routine is what got us into this mess in the first place.  If he wakes up and gets fed at 5AM, how is 1/2/3/4 AM any different? My gut tells me to let him figure it out and don't go in his room until a set time (aka 6:30-7) to get him up. Might take a while for him to adjust but hopefully it would happen over time.  Just had to get that all off my chest.

Brett's going out of town tonight so I'm doing one more 1/2 scoop of formula until he gets back then we are to 100% water!!!! I need his support obviously in case this completely backfires on me. No thank you to being by myself for that.

In baby girl news, as of today we are exactly FIVE weeks away. I guess I need to pack the hospital bag? And come up with a plan? I'm getting a little nervous because with Cash I got induced and never ''went into labor'' on my own. So it's still kind of a guessing game what progressing contractions feel like. Unless my water straight up breaks, then duh. Which I think will be hilarious if it happens in a really public and embarrassing place.

(PS here is the link to my weekend updates if you missed it)

xoxo,
ryann

Sunday, February 9, 2014

BLOGGING ON A SUNDAY

Does anyone actually check FB or read blogs on Sundays?? I'm having trouble remembering anything these days so I have to update now or all info will be lost by tomorrow.


NIGHT 9 (FRIDAY)Bedtime: 7:30 PM
Woke: 2 AM (drank: 3 oz)
Awake for the day: 7:30 AM


**once again we had to let him CIO but this time it was only for about 15 minutes until total silence!


NIGHT 10 (SATURDAY)Bedtime: 7 PM
Woke: 3 AM (drank: 3 oz)
Awake for the day: 7 AM


**he only cried for FIVE MINUTES last night. FIVE MINUTES!! Until total silence and back to zzzzz land. 


At this point his bottle is basically water. We add half a scoop of cereal for 2 more nights then it's TOTALLY water.  These past few nights have mentally prepared us for what's to come when we don't go in with a bottle at all. But I'm still so nervous about just how long he will be crying. I know it needs to be done though.  And you know the best part right now? He woke up hungry this morning for his bottle. That hasn't happen in MONTHS. I haven't had to chase him around with one today and he's been a thirsty little bee. Brett & I really really really think this is somehow working so fingers crossed for more good updates tomorrow and the rest of the week!


PS. NAPS ARE A WHOLE OTHER STORY.




xoxo,
ryann

Friday, February 7, 2014

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SAYING THIS....

But today was the first day of transitioning Cash from 2 naps a day to just ONE. Uno. I feel like that deserves an entire other post/explanation since he's only 10 months old and most ''books'' say this doesn't happen until like 15-18 months. Moving on to last night :)


NIGHT 8 (THURSDAY)
Bedtime: 7:30 PM
Woke: 3 AM TO 4:30 AM (yup) (drank: 3 oz)
Awake for the day: 7:30 AM


For the first time in a while, he refused to go to sleep at bedtime. After about an hour and a half battle, he finally gave in and snoozed until 3 AM. Then he was playing in his crib which turned to the usual crying for a bottle/comfort. Brett went up there with the 6 ounces and after an hour he had only gotten about 3 down and was just playing/refusing to eat. So he put him back in his crib and apparently that was just not OK. At this point it was 4 AM, we were both up and watching the monitor and made the decision to let him CIO. He obviously was not hungry and it seemed like the only option we had or we would be going in and out all night trying to get him back to sleep. Little man cried for about 30 minutes and then drifted off to zzzzzzz land all by himself. I WAS SO PROUD! And after that he slept until 7:30 AM! (PS yes of course it was hard to let him cry and yes I was a basket case of anxiety) BUT it worked. And after last night I definitely feel ''more'' prepared when we take the bottle away completely.


Only 3 more nights to go! And thank you everyone for reading and following along!


xoxo
ryann

Thursday, February 6, 2014

BIZARRO NIGHTS

NIGHT SIX (TUESDAY)
Bedtime: 7:30 PM
Woke: 2:30 AM (ate 3 ounces)
Awake for the day: 7:30 AM

HE PUT HIMSELF BACK TO SLEEP AFTER ONLY 3 OUNCES, Y'ALL. HE WAS STANDING UP IN HIS CRIB AND THEN WHINED FOR ABOUT 20 SECONDS. AND FELL ASLEEP. UNTIL 7:30.

I was all like, this is working!!!! You see Brett had Night 6-- I really think dads have that magic touch, you know?  But I was so confident last night I could do the same thing. Hehe.

NIGHT SEVEN (WEDNESDAY)
Bedtime: 7:30 PM
Woke: 3:15 AM TO 4:45 AM (ate 4 ounces)
Awake for the day: 7:00 AM

I woke up around 3:15 to Cash talking to himself in his crib. He wasn't upset and he didn't seem bothered/hungry. I let him roll around for about 30 minutes until he was completely silent. I was staring at the monitor like a HAWK thinking that any minute he would stand up and demand the bottle. But then he was silent...for like 15 minutes!! So I got myself back in bed and started to doze off...silly mom...why would you do that? Cue the screaming at 4 AM.  I make the bottle, go up there, and bravely only try to feed him 3 ounces like B had the night before. He was pretty much asleep in my arms by then so I laid him back down and left the room.  Well mom does not have the magic touch apparently...cue screaming again.  Sleep = not happening. I gave him more and he drifted back to sleep around 4:45/5. He only drank 1 more ounce so I'm not sure he was really that hungry either...we'll see what tonight brings.

We had a checkup yesterday and his pediatrician laid it all out for me: we need to completely retrain him. (Which obviously I already knew). She said that we should skip this night weaning and go straight to water. She even suggested just leaving a sippy cup of water in his crib so when he wakes up he can get some and go back to sleep-- but I know my child better than that. He will sit there and play with that sippy cup for HOURS. Drop it over the crib. Cry because he dropped it over the crib. Etc etc. That for us is not an option. Anyways, I want to finish what we started with the night weaning. We have managed to get it down to him waking up only ONE time at night which is more than I thought possible a month ago, so maybe something is working? 

So I told her we want to finish it out and then we will do the sleep training over again. I explained to her that he cried for two hours (and that surely can't be normal) and he HAD to be hungry right!! And she said that the longest she has heard of was FOUR HOURS and that it will be hell for a few nights/weeks but it is doable and we.can.do.this. His body is built to go 12 hours at night without eating. If he eats at 7, he should not be hungry until 7 the next morning. If we feed him between then-- say at like 1 AM-- then his body resets another 12 hours. Which is why he isn't hungry for so long in the morning!!! He is still going on that ''12 hour stretch'' and refusing bottles in the morning.  She also gave me some great reassurance on the amount he should be getting in one day: 16 to 24 ounces.  Stop chasing him around with the bottle. Set strict boundaries. Regain control.  Apparently we have much bigger issues we need to tackle. But for now all I can focus on is night weaning...then we move on. Looks like I'll be blogging this whole journey and lord PLEASE let it take only 5 weeks because that's all the time we have left until baby girl gets here. 

But of course I will be patient with my little man and do whatever I can to make him a healthier and happier baby.

(PS. Shout out to my friend from middle school, Christine, who I ran into at the doctor's office yesterday. She has the CUTEST baby boy and she told me she reads my blog which basically made me freak out and want to hug her ten times)

xoxo,
ryann

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

I AM LE TIRED.

Do I complain enough on here?? I guess I should also say that B & I take turns every other night. So it's not like I'm not getting any sleep ever. But of course being pregnant I don't sleep good anyways, so when he gets up with Cash I can't help but stay awake too.  Just wanted to tell you that piece of non pertinent information....

NIGHT FIVE (MONDAY)
Bedtime: 7 PM
Woke: 1:00 AM (ate 3 ounces)
Awake for the day: 6:30 AM


**again ate a huge dinner and bottle right before bed but still woke up early in the night. this time he was wide awake sitting up in his crib crying. and did not want to go back to sleep. but he did finally after a 45 minute struggle. this time i do NOT think he was hungry since he only drank 3 ounces and chewed on the bottle most of the 45 minutes. 


I started thinking about the night in our near future (5 more days) where we are ''not supposed'' to give him the bottle at all. When you ''know'' he's not hungry. Last time he CIO'd for 2 hours and I don't think I can handle that again, but if I give in does that mean the last 10 nights of ''weaning'' goes out the window??? Anxiety central.


On a happier note, Cash started feeding himself his grilled cheese (which I snuck mashed up peas and tomatoes into BTW) AND a whole cutie orange!! 


Toodles


xoxo

ryann

Monday, February 3, 2014

WEEKEND UPDATE

Thank you to everyone who commented and reached out to me on FB for your advice and encouragement!

We made the decision to switch him to a different formula. I don't want to jinx it but so far it seems like he's drinking a little more during the day so we'll so how that goes...I want to recap our nightly feedings since Friday...

NIGHT TWO (Friday)
Bedtime: 7 PM
Woke: 2:30 AM (ate 4 ounces)
Awake for the day: 6 AM

***refused solid foods ALL DAY

NIGHT THREE (Saturday)
Bedtime: 8:30 PM **tried a later bedtime
Woke: 3:30 AM (ate 6 ounces) 
Awake for the day: 8 AM!!!!!!!!!!!

***ate a big solid food dinner thanks to his god mommy Megan!
***in my head I'm thinking, OMG a later bedtime worked this time! It hasn't before but maybe that is the key, hallelujah!! but then came last night.

NIGHT FOUR (Sunday)
Bedtime: 8:00 PM **tried a later bedtime, again
Woke: 1:30 AM (ate 6 ounces on and off). WAS AWAKE FOR OVER AN HOUR. 
Awake for the day: 7 AM

Last night threw me way off- there was no rhyme or reason. He went to bed later, had a huge bottle before bed, and ate the biggest dinner he's ever eaten. Also I managed to squeeze in like 24 ounces all day which is huge for him. When he first woke up I tried to feed him the bottle and he was just chewing on it. Like he didn't want it at all. So I fed him a few ounces and put him back down. He screamed. Repeat process. Until all 6 ounces were gone. And he was fast asleep in my arms. Then he woke up around 5:30, squirmed, and didn't get up for the day until around 7. Which is pretty good- I'll take it. But this makes me question if he was even hungry? Some nights he definitely is. And some nights he definitely needs me and the bottle for comfort.  So I think we have a mixture of both problems which is highly confusing and frustrating. Cash is completely sleep trained to GO to bed or to GO down for naps. But during the night it's like he doesn't know how to put himself back to sleep at 1,2,3,4 AM. We tried CIO/Ferber/etc and he will literally scream for 2 hours (which I think I mentioned earlier). This brings us to the night weaning trial..then we move on to CIO again when we KNOW he isn't hungry and only using the bottle for comfort. (Will we ever really know though??? Sigh)

Long story short, I have no idea if this ''night weaning'' is working since some nights he drinks 4 ounces and some nights 6. I do know now we are giving him half water and half formula. And tonight he'll get even less formula and more water.

Typing this all out just makes me even more confused and exhausted.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading!! And nothing makes my day more than when I run into someone and they say ''I read your blog, how did last night go?" LOVE THAT AND LOVE YOU ALL. 

xoxo,
ryann

Friday, January 31, 2014

NIGHT WEANING

I have about 5 minutes before Cash wakes up for the day (sleeping this late is VERY unusual mind you) so I have to type reallllllllll fast.

Cash started sleeping through the night around like 6 weeks old. We were shocked, naive, and all like ''well that's not as bad as people say?!?!" Literally he would sleep from like 8 PM to 8 AM. Heaven, right? Yeah, until he was around 4-5 months old. Then that stopped. Out of nowhere. Isn't that backwards? I'm pretty sure I would rather have a newborn up all night and then transition to sleeping through the night because ever since that one night he woke up during the night he never stopped...here we are 5 months later and it's gotten even worse. We have 6 weeks until baby girl comes and I'm determined to figure something out.  We have seriously tried almost e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. I have ordered every book off Amazon, I have met with doctors, we have tried CIO, Ferber, bla bla bla. You name it, we've tried it. One thing we haven't done yet though is ''night weaning.''

Before I get to that....Cash also has other things going on-- he does NOT like solid foods any more (minus bananas and sometimes guacamole) and he will NOT drink his bottle very well during the day. For his age and weight he's supposed to get around 24-32 ounces during the day. (Sidenote: He is on formula. I won't go into why or how or any of that. It is what it is, carry on). Anyways, I am lucky if I get 15 ounces in him. Which means guess what- he is HUNGRY at night!! He wants to eat. Most of the time anyways. That's why CIO didn't work for us. A hungry baby is a hungry baby. Especially when he's drinking half of what he needs. I am stressed beyond belief chasing him around with a bottle every day and worrying he isn't getting enough nutrition. Yes he is gaining weight and growing so the doctors aren't worried, which also means they have no advice. We meet with feeding therapists, stomach doctors, and his pedi- so far nothing has helped.

At 4/5 months he started waking up once around 4-5 AM. We'd feed him and he would sleep until 8 or 9 AM. This was NOT bad for me, I actually enjoyed getting to sleep in that late. But if they wake up at 4 AM and it's dark, how are their bodies supposed to know 1 AM, 2 AM, 3 AM is any different? And that's exactly what started happening. I think he got so used to waking up for a bottle no matter if he was hungry or not that it became habit. Well now that he won't drink enough during the day that habit has turned into 2 or 3 times at night. For a bottle, for routine, for comfort- I have no idea!!! I know that most of the time he is hungry and that tells me he's doing all his ''drinking'' during the night therefore refuses to drink a lot during the day. Have I confused you yet?

My last resort is night weaning. Where you take a little bit of formula away from the bottle at night over around 2 weeks until it is just water. If they are drinking straight up water out of the bottle and fall back asleep easy then you KNOW they are not hungry during the night (I guess water doesn't fill them up) and you can move on to other things to get them back to sleep (CIO, Ferber, soothing, etc). It's like we have to do everything backwards...again. And apparently this means since they are just drinking mostly water during the night, they will make up for it during the day...aka drink all their formula...aka PLEASE WORK. Here is the link for the plan we are following: http://www.isabelagranic.com/bed-timing/2009/06/when-the-snack-bar-is-closing-some-strategies-for-nightweaning.html

My whole point in writing this is a) to get all this off my chest b) to let you know if this doesn't work and a newborn joins our house i will literally have a mental breakdown c) to chronicle it so i can see progress/get encouragement

Last night was our first night of night weaning.

NIGHT ONE
Bedtime: 7 PM
Woke: 1:30 AM (ate 4 ounces)
Woke: 5 AM (ate 1 ounce)
Awake for the day: 7 AM

**this night was very unusual since he only drank 5 ounces during the night. Usually it's more like 10-11, but we'll see what tonight brings.

He's up, I must depart. xoxo

Monday, January 13, 2014

9 WEEKS

9 more weeks until we become a family of four. i'm still trying to wrap my head around it all. 2 kids to feed, 2 kids to bathe, 2 kids to take to the grocery store. then i start thinking about how i never had a sister or brother growing up. and how excited i am to see cash as a big brother. and to watch him watch his sister. and to watch her love her brother. all these things make me happy. and all warm and fuzzy inside.

in other news, feeding a 10 month old is HARD WORK you guys. definitely one of the biggest hurdles i've faced in motherhood so far (besides you know the whole lack of sleep thing). but planning out meals and introducing new foods and getting him to actually sit in the high chair for more than 5 minutes- it's exhaaaausting. he pretty much only likes bananas and guac at this point. and of course that donut that mom sneaks in every week from shipleys (is it so wrong?)

oh and cashy started SCHOOL last week! well mother's day out, but you get the point. i spent the whole day counting down until i could pick him up and tried to not have a break down. but i went to starbucks! i got my nails done! i ran errands! i ate lunch without having to scarf it down in 5 minutes. it all felt real nice. but man i did miss my little guy.

so 9 more weeks to go. until baby girl. and until i never have to be pregnant. ever. again.

xoxo
ryann